This is part 2 of the introduction of my newest website "BORN IN HELL". This series will provide background information of what is to be born into abuse, dysfunction, mental illness, domestic violence and it is my hope that survivors of abuse will reach out and get help, and that the public at large will begin to understand what is to grow up abused and why it is vital that we all get involved to save children from a life of hell. I am the youngest of 7 siblings. I grew up being abused from birth in a home filled with domestic violence and abuse, mental illness, psychological illness, dysfunction, suicide, drug abuse, sibling abuse, and compete horror. My parents were abused as children and each had their own set of issues before they were married. My mom was abused physically, emotionally, psychologically, and verbally by her mother. My dad was emotionally and psychologically abused by both of his parents. My dad was abusing my mother before they were even married, but my mom married him anyway to get out of her mother's house of hell. My parents then had 6 children, all born in Canada. My dad was in the DOT, Department of Transport in WWII, a radio operator for the North Atlantic Air Force and Navy. My siblings were born wherever my parents were stationed at the time. My mom attempted to divorce my dad early in their marriage due to the abuse he was inflicting on the children, and her. The courts dismissed the case because at that time in Canada, you could not divorce for any reason other than infidelity. My mom stayed with my dad because she had no where to go, no job skills, and several young children to try and take care of. She did not want to go back to her abuser mother's house.
My dad decided he wanted to move to New Mexico, USA and 5 years later I was brought into the world by c-section. I was 3 months early, premature and had to go into an incubator until I was at a healthy enough weight and healthy enough to go home. My nurse named me. My mom was in a coma and did not even know I was born. I was born from marital rape. My dad had been raping my mom for years, forcing her to have unprotected sex, in order that she become pregnant. My mom was told not to have any more children after my brother Howard was born as my mom's health was so bad. My mom carried two babies full term who were delivered still born before I was born and my sister Kathi. I was not wanted and when my parents brought me home, they said "welcome to our hell, welcome to our hell", which is the same thing they had told all their children upon arrival.
My dad continued to abuse my siblings and my mother, and my mom continued to abuse all of her children too. My parents were arrested and charged with child abuse and neglect after my brother went to school beaten up. The authorities got involved and my parents were arrested and had to go to court. My dad had beaten my brother Rob badly, and he told the authorities he was afraid to go home. My mom made it look like it was all my dad's fault and that my dad was the one who was beating the children and her. My older siblings spoke up in court and told the judge that my mom was also physically abusing all the children as well. My mom begged the courts to let her keep her children and not to remove us from their home. The courts agreed but only if conditions were met. My parents were court ordered to attend individual counselling, marital counselling, family counselling, as well as counselling for my siblings. I was 2 years old at this time and I do not remember the court proceedings.
My parents were diagnosed mentally ill, psychologically ill as well as some of my siblings. My dad was diagnosed schizophrenic, with borderline personality disorder, and my mom was diagnosed manic depressive, which is bi-polar. My brother Rob was also diagnosed bi-polar at this time. My parents attended two counselling sessions. My siblings advised that there were no other sessions attended. CPS was involved and used to come for regular visits to check on us. I remember a man and a woman coming to the house with clip boards, and they would remove my clothing and check for signs of abuse. They would then have my mom dress me and give me a sucker for behaving so nicely. I enjoyed their visits because they would smile at me and touch me softly, and say nice things to me. They signed off our case when I was 3 1/2 years old and the abuse started all over again.
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