This video is part of the video series Born in Hell. This video contains graphic and explicit material. Please listen at your own discretion. If the topics of abuse of any kind, domestic violence, child sexual abuse, or violence bother you, please do not watch this video. This pic was taken when I was 12 years old. This year my brother Rob, who had abused me sexually at age 8 to 9 years old, attempted suicide by slicing his arms up his veins. He called my mom to tell her he was committing suicide. My mom put me on the phone with him while she went across the street to use the neighbours phone to call for help as my brother was in Canada. My brother who was 25 at this time, began to tell me how much he enjoyed using my body sexually as a child. He began describing just how much he enjoyed "F'ing" me and how sensual and soft my skin was against his. I was in shock as I held the phone, I began to shake and my heart was pounding because I knew he was talking about what he had done to me when I was 8 years old. I remembered the sexual assaults, the violent raping of my body as I was tied up, gagged and tape put over my mouth for frontal assaults to prevent me from biting him. No tape was used for other assaults. My brother was saved that time and my mom brought him home to stay with us while his arms healed up from the suicide attempt. I was afraid that he would rape me again and he threatened to rape me if I did not stay away from him. This abuse caused me a life time of hell and pain as well as the abuse my mom was inflicting on me and my dad. My dad began to beat me across the face with his belt buckle at this time. He would shove me against a wall and force his knuckles into my ribs which would automatically cause me to use my hands to try and get his knuckles out of my ribs which caused me extreme pain. He would whip off his belt and pull it back and beat me across the face with the belt buckle end of the belt. I began to curse at him and tell him I hated him to his face which would then give him an excuse to throw me to the ground and beat my back and legs with the belt. At this point, I did not care anymore and wanted to die.
Back on La Veta next door to the house we used to own
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